this new feeling

i have been so unsatisfied with my life for so long now, that this feeling of contentment and maybe a little excitement for the future is an odd one. but it is definitly an improvement. i had the best time with you this weekend. even when i was only watching boys throw rocks at trees or try to spit sunflower seeds into a can. the fact that they are all my friends and that they liked that i was there with you made me feel rather good. i like that you are considerate and kind. and that you always make sure i am having a good time and that you actually want to spend time with me outside of the bar. and how you always hold my hand infront of your friends. i know i forget to tell you these things. i mean to, but they never seem to get from my mind to my mouth. i really hope you know them anyway, sometimes you seem to read my mind so maybe you do.