hey can you talk a little louder?

i like being busy. occupied.
no time to wallow
or overthink
or obsess.
all things i happen to do much too much.

i've been subbing dance all week.
(including tonight)
while my muscles and feet
may hate me at the moment
i feel i've been doing rather well as a teacher
i've definitly been missing it

i worry that the longer i go not teaching
the harder it will be to get back in
i need to put myslef out there
let people know i'm looking for a job
but i'm too sure how to do that.

on another note
i'm contemplating going blonde?
it's been awhile since i've been anything but brunette
i've grown bored with it i think
maybe an auburn? hmmmm . . .

i'm an idiot. and i am completely aware of it
i will be the first one to admit it
to point it out
and though i know i do it
i'm not going to change anytime soon.
mostly i can't help it.
and really i'm okay with it anyway.