meow?

i've realized a pattern in my life
i have a serious relationship
we break up
i'm single for 2-3 years after

soon it will be the 2 year mark again
which brings me hope that maybe it is time to meet someone new
and i am definitely ready for that to happen
i'm so done being single
naughty sex dreams have turned into sleeping in someones arms dreams
and i miss holding hands. desperately.

but now i'm wondering: why the 2-3 years?
why does my psyche feel the need to do this to me?
at this rate i'll be single forever
now i just have to decide what kind of sad single lady i want to be:
'wears to much make up and inappropraite clothing while hanging out at the bar' single lady?
or 'owns a lot of sweaters with cats on them' single lady?

so many choices . . .