time

it's strange how a year can pass
so much can change
yet you still find yourself in the same place

feeling the same things
thinking the same things
regretting the same things

did i fight hard enough?
did i fight too hard?

how do i keep ending up here?

tummy time

people sometimes ask me why i'm a cat person
my answer is always the same
because everyone needs someone who loves them unconditionally
and if they love to snuggle? so much the better

not that bad right?

today i was testing out some outfits for competition - gotta look professional backstage you know - and i realized what a large amount of boots i own. i then realized that i seem to have a lot of shoes in general.

boots:

high tops:


flats:


sandals:


heels:

whats the appropriate amount of shoes for a single person? more importantly how big of a cliche am i?

*not pictured : uggs, rain boots, sweater boots

diy & e.e. cummings

i have recently become interested in diy fashion projects
bracelets in particular, like this one


and i really like this t shirt idea


maybe because i have so much free time in the mornings now, and i'm over the whole sleeping 12 hours a day thing? either way i want to make a large quantity of these t shirts and write e.e. cummings poetry on them.

or get it tattoo'd on my body . . .

i haven't decided yet

b.lestrange

I desperately want this on a tshirt
why?
because i'm a huge nerd obviously

YIKES

Just like everyone else I'm all up on the Pinterest
That is until I read this:

HOLY SHIT

And then I immediately deleted anything I had saved to a board.

being a girl

i just spent the last 2.5 hours repairing (hot gluing AND hand sewing) 17 white lace parasols
these kids better appreciate what i do for them

if only they weren't so darn sweet and hard working
it would be easier to be resentful . . . .

his goatee is so dreamy

my newest netflix obsession is the bbc america robin hood series
there are 3 seasons only and i'm already most of the way through season 2
i'm scared to get to the end
this show is so clever and witty and sarcastic
the evil sheriff is always wearing sandals and making amazing puns
robin hood is so dashing with his archery and winking and clever insults
and of course will scralett
i have a major crush on this guy
but who wouldn't love a man who can make musical instruments that are actually hilariously obvious hidden weapons
a harp that turns into a bow? AWESOME
turns out his is also the guy who played the super crazy but still hot viserys targareyn on game of thrones

yes, i did imdb him
i'm not ashamed

roses are red, violets are blue, in soviet russia, poem reads you!

i'm working really hard at being ambiguous towards valentines day
(is ambiguous the right word? apathetic maybe?)
and its mostly working

i'm looking forward to the princess valentines and cinnamon hearts i hope to receive from my 3 yr old class tomorrow

also a romantic lunch with kb
some sun peak peach boones, a little mac and cheese, maybe a little over the bra action . . .
all in all a satisfactory v day

although i do wish someone would hand make me a card proclaiming

HAPPY VD

like i got back in high school - actually i think i have that saved somewhere
you don't throw that shit away bro

still working on doing just one

i have successfully installed my new chin up bar
chin up bar you say?
yes indeed, im gonna get so ripped, really work on my upper body yo

but in all seriousness
i'm getting frustrated with not being as strong as everyone else in silks class
and have taken steps to change that - hence the bar across the laundry room doorway

really this all goes back to my need to be good at everything i do and my refusal to participate in things i suck at (pool,most team sports) or assume i will suck at (snowboarding)

so i secretly practice until i feel i am better at whatever then at least some people